LTCI 4: Why Illness is not everything

There is always a person behind an illness… can you find them?

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I recently went to a conference where I met a lot of new people.

Which (necessarily) led to lot of introductions – and because this was a writing conference, it also led to a lot of answering the question: what do you write?

Which in turn led to explaining about this blog, and after that, about my Loved Ones – namely, my mum and my sister. After the first five times I got my ‘blurb’ down pat:

“I write a blog about loving people with chronic illnesses, as my Mum has multiple diseases including pernicious anemia and type 1 diabetes (with all its associated problems) and my sister had a brain tumour and now her body does not produce any hormones.”

It was a ‘neat’ answer, but after offering it a couple more times I found myself growing increasingly uncomfortable. I found it difficult to repeat, to the point where I had to practically force myself to say it and felt like I was rushing to get it over and done with.

Why?

Love in a Time of Chronic Illness: Why Illness is not everything

Was I ashamed of my family?

No.

Was I tired of them?

No.

Or simply tired of answering the question?

No, I knew it was a way to love others around me and love my family too.

Did I dislike the attention it drew to myself? Partly, no one likes to offer what sounds like a ‘sob’ story, but I knew it was the truth and part of me, and so that wasn’t the reason.

Then all at once I knew.

Words are not everything

In offering my pre-prepared response I was trying to condense two lifetimes into three sentences. In reducing my loved ones problems into words I felt like I was short-changing them. At the same time, I also felt like I was losing them.

You see, I never think of my Mum as ‘someone with multiple illnesses’ or my sister as ‘the girl who lived through a brain tumour but still struggles with the problems it left behind’. Not at all!

They are simply ‘Mum’ and ‘Sister’.

They are so much more than their health conditions.

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 There is always a person behind the illness

At once my discomfort turned to relief, and also thankfulness. Chronic illness can disrupt a life to the point where it feels like there is nothing left BUT the illness – but now I know that is NEVER true.

There is always the Person behind there, made in the image of the ultimate Person, dearly loved, their essential essence indestructible.

Prescriptions, diagnoses and treatments – even 10, 20, 40 years of them – could not erase the reality that Mum was still Mum and Sister is still Sister.

And so I thank God.

My realisation doesn’t made my necessary pre-prepared response any easier to say, but it does mean that alongside discomfort I can recognize joy.

Illness is not everything, even when it feels like it at times, and never is this more evident than when you try to ‘sum up’ a person in mere words.

This is the 4th in a series of posts called Love in a Time of Chronic Illness. The others include:

The gift that wasn’t for her (when loving people doesn’t make you happy)

Am I my family’s keeper?

How to turn skepticism into love

//What about you? Do you have a pre-prepared response? Does it ever make you uncomfortable?

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Author: Emily J. M.

Hi, I'm Emily. Two of my closest family members struggle with chronic illness, and I watch them. That's hard, and so I write about life as a 'Watcher', what it looks like to support them and find Hope.

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